Okay so I have no particular lopic to talk about so I'll just ramble on untill this gets somewhere. Well first things first: I am depressed. I dont show it but I am. I need to get out of my house. I need a job. I need a hitman. And maybe a giant meat grinder. Even though I have a boyfriend I am still depressed. I feel spoiled. When I am single I want a boyfriend. When I am in a relationship I want to be single. I love the freedom of being single but I love to know that someone loves me like a boyfriend does. I dont know what I want anymore. I am trying to get a job because I need to get money for college and maybe moving out. I dont want to work in the food business because I get really sick if my temperture rises. I dont like getting burned. And I dont like being greasy >_<. I just feel like I'm whining but I mean itsgood to let it out once in a while. I also have been feeling like I need more sleep. I go to bed at 10 and im not going any earlier than that. I think I might be low in iron but I wont really untill I get a blood test WHICH I DONT WANT TO DOOO >_<. I reaally want to study Japanese but my parents arnt paying for it this year. I thought they liked it was good for me to learn something but I guess not. My printer/scanner doesnt worn anymore so thats why I'm not putting much artwork in. I just feel like nothing is working out anymore and I feel quite down because of it. Not so down I want to kill my self but to the point when I find myself and my parents thinking of putting me in the loony bin. Oh did I mention my parents think I might be clinically insane... how about that. Well I finally wrote something. I dont even know if people read these. Thanks for the deviantart journal skin ^__^